After the last several days that Kjell and I have had our couples devotion we do together each night, well it couldn't have fallen on a better day. Isn't it funny how God does that? You may miss a day here for there and never think of it but it was really divine intervention because this is exactly what we needed to hear at this moment at this time and it just shows that God cares so much about the little stuff...... we need to learn to trust HIM in the big stuff.
The title was learn to roll with the punches. "When you and your spouse face adversity, pray for the wisdom to know whether to stand firm or roll with the punches. Perhaps God is working powerfully in your cirucmstances to bring about His plans for you and take you places you cannot now begin to imagine." The verse was from the NLT "God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love Him."
I'm scared stiff but also feel like I'm at the top of the roller coaster waiting to see how the ride is going to go once we start the scary fall down the hill and honestly I can't wait to see how this ride goes!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
long time no post
Well I am anxious to see where this blog goes because I don't really know what I'm going to say but I haven't written for so long I figured I needed to write. The pregnancy is going good, I'm at 24 weeks and still in regular clothes, although part of that is because Kjell hasn't brought my clothes up from the basement yet. It's always fun to pull those big tent shirts out and wonder if I will actually get that big and have to wear them (and the answer is always yes!) I had done amazingly well on my weight only five pounds in five months, then we went to Meade for Easter. For some reason we always eat way too much food in Meade it's kind of my mom's and my time to try new recipes and mostly desserts and just eat way too much. Needless to say I came home having gained another 4.5 pounds. :( So did Kjell though but he lost it in like one day... buckethead. Since then I have continued to gain rather rapidly compared to how I gained in the first several months. I'm up to having gained 12 lbs. Even though I am working out every day!!! Too many baked goods around... cake more cake, cookies cupcakes.... I'm a sucker for those yummy treats.
As for my workouts I finished the first month of my new program it is really a four month program but I'm going to try to attempt the first three months. Month four would put me right up at my due date not sure I want to still be doing jumping jacks then. Am debating having to take one of the days out though already because it's putting a lot of strain on my body for the past two weeks I don't want to do anything stupid so I may just have to add one of my favorite P90X workouts back into to make up the difference. We shall see. I'm too tough on myself to know if I truly need to quit or am I just a wimp?? I hate quiting anything.
As far as do we know what the results are from the school budget cuts. No, they are planning to wait until the latest day possible to let people know if they are hired or fired for next year. FUN times, the wonderful state of Kansas decided to allow them an extra three weeks to give staff notice, why? because some counties have school board primaries or elections coming up and the state thinks it would be horrible for these wonderful school board members to lose their postions over "tough choices" that's all nice but WHAT ABOUT THOSE WHO ACTUALLY GET PAID and need to make adjustments if they tell them they aren't coming back next year?? Good grief. Kjell and I on most days are very calm about the whole thing but it sure is hard to make any future plans just not knowing what is going to happen, as in we don't even know where we should plan to put the new baby, or her clothes.... so sad I can't plan anything oh well we only have one more month of waiting.
Kiah is growing up too fast, she and I do four preschool books every day and she is just super sharp and would love to do more if I let her. I figure for now that is probably enough but we have fun coloring and learning together she is very excited to finish one book because then I told her we could start a new one and she picked out a math book that she can't wait to try and has already been practicing.
Justus is learning so many new words. We do however believe he speaks either Chineese or Vietnames because somedays we just don't have a clue what he is saying. He now says night night when we put him to bed it is so cute because he insists on yelling it several times for all to hear. When you ask him to give you kisses he honks your nose instead. And he is all boy because he loves to play with balls and also loves to drive cars or anything with wheels around the house. We have to watch him outside because he thinks it's a game to run out into the street and we live at a pretty heavily trafficed (for Atwood) corner.
The new baby as you read above weighs in at 12 lbs already haha! She has found my ribs already and if you know anything about my other two pregnancies you know this has been a sore spot total pun intended with both of my other children. Kiah kicked me all the time my students that I was a para for made fun of me because I would sit in class holding my stomach down off my ribs all the time so she wouldn't be able to kick. Justus head butted me (since he was breach) and I was in so much pain the dr gave me he strongest meds he would give a pregnant woman and it didn't even touch the pain. So you can see why I'm a bit fearful of the next three months with that in my past. I want to get excited but there is so much planning that you need to do when you get excited and I just don't feel I can do that until I know what our future holds.
I read a really good devotional book with a couple of ladies from Atwood called "Lies Women Believe" and the one thing that I have really utilized since the study is that God gives us enough time to do what we need to do." Somehow that has impowered me to stay on top of things, like cleaning. My house has never looked this good for so many days in a row it's amazing (all you clean freaks stay away though because my version of clean and yours are probably totally different!) I've worked out every day I needed to, done Kiah's preschool books with her, stayed almost caught up on my e-mail and managed to do two Bible study lessons. I don't have more time I am just using it better in my opinion. That's it for now!
As for my workouts I finished the first month of my new program it is really a four month program but I'm going to try to attempt the first three months. Month four would put me right up at my due date not sure I want to still be doing jumping jacks then. Am debating having to take one of the days out though already because it's putting a lot of strain on my body for the past two weeks I don't want to do anything stupid so I may just have to add one of my favorite P90X workouts back into to make up the difference. We shall see. I'm too tough on myself to know if I truly need to quit or am I just a wimp?? I hate quiting anything.
As far as do we know what the results are from the school budget cuts. No, they are planning to wait until the latest day possible to let people know if they are hired or fired for next year. FUN times, the wonderful state of Kansas decided to allow them an extra three weeks to give staff notice, why? because some counties have school board primaries or elections coming up and the state thinks it would be horrible for these wonderful school board members to lose their postions over "tough choices" that's all nice but WHAT ABOUT THOSE WHO ACTUALLY GET PAID and need to make adjustments if they tell them they aren't coming back next year?? Good grief. Kjell and I on most days are very calm about the whole thing but it sure is hard to make any future plans just not knowing what is going to happen, as in we don't even know where we should plan to put the new baby, or her clothes.... so sad I can't plan anything oh well we only have one more month of waiting.
Kiah is growing up too fast, she and I do four preschool books every day and she is just super sharp and would love to do more if I let her. I figure for now that is probably enough but we have fun coloring and learning together she is very excited to finish one book because then I told her we could start a new one and she picked out a math book that she can't wait to try and has already been practicing.
Justus is learning so many new words. We do however believe he speaks either Chineese or Vietnames because somedays we just don't have a clue what he is saying. He now says night night when we put him to bed it is so cute because he insists on yelling it several times for all to hear. When you ask him to give you kisses he honks your nose instead. And he is all boy because he loves to play with balls and also loves to drive cars or anything with wheels around the house. We have to watch him outside because he thinks it's a game to run out into the street and we live at a pretty heavily trafficed (for Atwood) corner.
The new baby as you read above weighs in at 12 lbs already haha! She has found my ribs already and if you know anything about my other two pregnancies you know this has been a sore spot total pun intended with both of my other children. Kiah kicked me all the time my students that I was a para for made fun of me because I would sit in class holding my stomach down off my ribs all the time so she wouldn't be able to kick. Justus head butted me (since he was breach) and I was in so much pain the dr gave me he strongest meds he would give a pregnant woman and it didn't even touch the pain. So you can see why I'm a bit fearful of the next three months with that in my past. I want to get excited but there is so much planning that you need to do when you get excited and I just don't feel I can do that until I know what our future holds.
I read a really good devotional book with a couple of ladies from Atwood called "Lies Women Believe" and the one thing that I have really utilized since the study is that God gives us enough time to do what we need to do." Somehow that has impowered me to stay on top of things, like cleaning. My house has never looked this good for so many days in a row it's amazing (all you clean freaks stay away though because my version of clean and yours are probably totally different!) I've worked out every day I needed to, done Kiah's preschool books with her, stayed almost caught up on my e-mail and managed to do two Bible study lessons. I don't have more time I am just using it better in my opinion. That's it for now!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
moving and not pregnant
These are the rumors going around about my family in Atwood. Well the moving part is what we have heard the most about this week. Somehow people are starting to talk about us leaving. And then some people didn't know we were having a baby in less than four months. :) that's ok it just means my 9 lb gain hasn't started showing too much yet!
I've ranted about small towns in the past and as much as I love living in one they can just about drive a person mad. Here's the deal, there are unforseen amounts of budget cuts in EVERY school district in Kansas. that is a FACT. The next fact is school boards all over the state have some very tough decisions to make but DON'T yet know how much money they will be without because the Kansas St legislature just started a 3 week 'vacation" must be nice. So more facts. Kjell is one of the newest teachers in Atwood. So here's the delimia do you just sit around and wait for the board to say yes we want to keep you or do you at least see what is available out there? In my mind you don't stick your head in the sand and pretend that everything is fine. So yes we have looked in to a couple other schools but do we want to move NO. What scares me the most is the school board may hear these rumors and think "oh Kjell wants to leave so we might as well just delete his postion." so let me say it again. I AND MY HUSBAND DO NOT WISH TO LEAVE ATWOOD AT THIS TIME :) I'm having a baby this summer for goodness sake I can't imgine a move on top of this. But it all boils down to is God's will, not mine or Kjell's will be done. If He has us moving we will be moving, if He has us staying we will be staying. I had been doing so good to not worry since spring break but this has all stirred up all those crazy worries in my mind again. I HATE that. I just want to enjoy life one day at a time. I'm scared. I have a house not paid off in atwood, I have a husband who loves his job and a daughter who loves her preschool and we have really just in the last year felt we have made some really good friends. I don't know...
I've ranted about small towns in the past and as much as I love living in one they can just about drive a person mad. Here's the deal, there are unforseen amounts of budget cuts in EVERY school district in Kansas. that is a FACT. The next fact is school boards all over the state have some very tough decisions to make but DON'T yet know how much money they will be without because the Kansas St legislature just started a 3 week 'vacation" must be nice. So more facts. Kjell is one of the newest teachers in Atwood. So here's the delimia do you just sit around and wait for the board to say yes we want to keep you or do you at least see what is available out there? In my mind you don't stick your head in the sand and pretend that everything is fine. So yes we have looked in to a couple other schools but do we want to move NO. What scares me the most is the school board may hear these rumors and think "oh Kjell wants to leave so we might as well just delete his postion." so let me say it again. I AND MY HUSBAND DO NOT WISH TO LEAVE ATWOOD AT THIS TIME :) I'm having a baby this summer for goodness sake I can't imgine a move on top of this. But it all boils down to is God's will, not mine or Kjell's will be done. If He has us moving we will be moving, if He has us staying we will be staying. I had been doing so good to not worry since spring break but this has all stirred up all those crazy worries in my mind again. I HATE that. I just want to enjoy life one day at a time. I'm scared. I have a house not paid off in atwood, I have a husband who loves his job and a daughter who loves her preschool and we have really just in the last year felt we have made some really good friends. I don't know...
Thursday, April 1, 2010
writting a letter to Oprah
So let me be the first to say this I don't like Oprah, I don't tend to agree with the things Oprah says and besides Tina Faye who played Sarah Palin in SNL I think she singlehandedly had the most influence over why Obama sits in the White house (besides God of course who knew this would all happen) anyways I'm also I sucker for free things and recieved her O! magazine free for a year It's been ok because at Christmas she had a 5 dollar coupon off any hallmark purchase so I got to use that, but today I was reading her November issue (I am like my mom and months behind on my reading) and was highly disappointed, Oprah was quoted as thinking as a child as she watched her grandmother hang up laundry outside that she wanted a better life than that, or that there was more to life than that. A couple of pages later some fashion designer is quoted as saying when she was a kid she saw her dad give her a washing machine for a gift and how happy her mom was and "knew that was NOT the life for her" I guess I shouldn't put these in quotes since they aren't quite the exact words they said but ya get the picture. So I wrote a letter. I mean seriously Oprah is on at 4 in the afternoon who does she think watches her show, if she wants all women out in the workforce then she would have never been as big as she is (her show not her body, I see she has struggled with that over the years)
I would love if Kjell brought me a washing machine that actually worked, and ya know what in the summer I hang out my laundry to *gasp* air dry to save a couple bucks. I mean you'd think with how green liberals are supposed to be they would make that manditory. But heck they have maids for all that stuff. Or they can just afford to throw their stuff away and get new stuff. I LOVE being a stay at home mom. WhenI started almost four years ago that first month I thought I would die. I wanted to be around other "humans" soooo badly. But now I couldn't imagine life any differently. I get to help my kids learn, I get to see every new thing. And it may not always be easy living on one income, but we make do.
Our spending freeze ended yesterday on a HIGH note. we were able to be 1200 dollars in the black this month. That means I had money to pay off a small debt we owed, and put a lot of money in my envelope system, and towards paying for this baby and paying off my house. We don't eat out, I don't get my nails done and I rarely get to see a movie in the theater. but I get to have the best job I could possibly have, being with my kids and teaching them the values and morals and life lessons that I want them to know.
So Oprah... I'm sorry this stay at home mom is going to continue hanging my laundry out to dry and if you would like to ever help a "poor ole stay at home mom out" I'd sure love a front loading washing machine and matching dryer. It'd make my day!
I would love if Kjell brought me a washing machine that actually worked, and ya know what in the summer I hang out my laundry to *gasp* air dry to save a couple bucks. I mean you'd think with how green liberals are supposed to be they would make that manditory. But heck they have maids for all that stuff. Or they can just afford to throw their stuff away and get new stuff. I LOVE being a stay at home mom. WhenI started almost four years ago that first month I thought I would die. I wanted to be around other "humans" soooo badly. But now I couldn't imagine life any differently. I get to help my kids learn, I get to see every new thing. And it may not always be easy living on one income, but we make do.
Our spending freeze ended yesterday on a HIGH note. we were able to be 1200 dollars in the black this month. That means I had money to pay off a small debt we owed, and put a lot of money in my envelope system, and towards paying for this baby and paying off my house. We don't eat out, I don't get my nails done and I rarely get to see a movie in the theater. but I get to have the best job I could possibly have, being with my kids and teaching them the values and morals and life lessons that I want them to know.
So Oprah... I'm sorry this stay at home mom is going to continue hanging my laundry out to dry and if you would like to ever help a "poor ole stay at home mom out" I'd sure love a front loading washing machine and matching dryer. It'd make my day!
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